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Just an afternoon growing up a little at a time. I cannot help but feel very blessed every day- for everything I have.

GG part II

So the snow looks like it is trying to make way for spring. Then the 20 day sneaks back up on me and out we haul boots and gloves again. And just like the weather, there are times I think of her often and other times, she is just comfortably in the background. But I am certain she will never leave. I happen to believe that folks that aren't alive are still with us. And I can tell you there have been a few times that while playing with Isaac in the afternoon, driving to or from work or doing mundane activities, I will suddenly think of her. Again, just my belief, but I think at that time she is thinking of me, hanging out or something is connecting. Or maybe it is wishful thinking. Whatever it is...doesn't matter really. I just know the memories come back and I relive them and it is good. I mention her to the kids once in a while- the foods she liked, didn't like, things she liked to do etc.. I think it is a good idea because as they grow up, I don't know about you, it is nice to have interests or tastes related to others sometimes. Kids can appreciate the fact that there is someone else out there that likes/dislikes the same stuff they do. Especially when it is someone that loves them and they love back. and it ISN'T mom and dad!

So here is to GG...

GG part 1

Hmmm, well the picture is a bit smaller than I thought it would be...but you get the idea!  It is a picture of GG and William from the 2007 calendar.  It is kind of an interesting feel because you know the shot on the blog is not the direct picture...which would be timely for this blog and it's purpose.

We got the call about a year ago that she had passed.  Not a surprise as her health had been steadily failing since October -nonetheless sad.  Then ensued the mad dash to pack, arrange, and get to Mt. P for the wake and funeral.  And we were lucky enough to be in the same state!  Thou shall not complain too much!

So a year later, there is plenty to reflect upon.  I now have three sons.  Isaac is 10 months old now.  Blonder than blonde, full of life and personality.  He is starting to scoot around and cruise the couch.  Now if only I could get him to sleep through the night.  One thing I do wish was that GG could have held him. I have a feeling she is around and has seen him but to really hold him, that would have been great.

Now, what better way to celebrate a person's life is to remember the fun and good times? What did GG like!?  Chicken wings, bacon, microwave fries, "little porkies", okee dokee popcorn and a cup of soda during evening programs, being teased about the Green Spot, Golden Coral (oh, no one said your taste was ALWAYS good- no one is perfect) everyone to take their shoes off at the door (lest we be able to OPEN and SHUT the door with all those shoes there), for us to come and stay a while (or longer if possible), loved to tell us what was in the fridge and for us to eat at least one of each thing in the fridge, babies..she loved babies, Could not understand when they got to be about one year old why they just won't stay on her lap quietly, and family.  She really loved getting everyone together at the holidayz. I remember when I was really young, we used to have 4th of July at her house.  That was back when everyone would put a beer or two away- even her.

So, how has she influenced my life!?  Well, now, like her, I have three children.  And JUST LIKE HER, I have already started calling everyone by someone else's name.  I did not think that was going to happen for a while.  But when you think about it Zach and Isaac have similar sounds. You know it is bad when you call kids by their brother's nicknames.  Then you know it is downhill from here.  I make coffee and then cannot figure out where i put it.  Hmmm, that might be GG or my mom - most likely both!  I really feel blessed I got to live with her during college.  Now, had you asked me my opinion at the time, it might have been a bit different.  But now as I reflect- i got to know her much more than I would have otherwise.  What is that phrase, something about hind sight!? 

Part 2 will following this entry soon!